Zine: playing with fire 2 § The Amanda Project

playing with fire 2

i sat at my usual spot in the cafeteria
it was just the right distance away from THE table
you know, the one where all the so-called “cool” kids sit.
i sit down and take out my sandwich, i take one bite of the delicious steak sandwich Dad made for me
that’s when Anna appears.
Anna is my one true friend at this school
she always cheers me up when i’m down
she’s always there for me when i get bullied
and i love how she wears peach-colored clothes or frilly skirts that make her look as innocent as a 5 year old.
but today she’s wearing skinny jeans with a pink spaghetti strap and bright yellow mary-janes. not usually her.
“hey Anna!”
“umm.. hi Patricia..”
her eyes seem to lose contact with mine
she sat down and looked at my face
but not meeting my eyes
“Patricia.. um.. there’s something i need to tell you” Anna said, her voice seem to be shaking
“what is it buddy?” i asked hoping it’s nothing bad
but what she said next was un-expected
“i don’t think we should be friends anymore”
i was lost for words right now but i manage to spit out a word
“WHAT?”
“Patricia please understand, i want to be popular and me being friends with you is not helping, i’m sorry”
with that she hurriedly left and vanished into the ocean of teenagers in the cafeteria.
i was still stunned
i mean we were the greatest friends
and she’s never mentioned anything about being popular
how could she? she knows my condition at the moment, and she does this!?
i was tearing up, i pack away my sandwich
i was thinking of crying in the toilet
but that will make me look even weaker than now
i can’t show Anna that i care
i need to be strong
i need to stand on my own two feet
with no support what-so-ever.
Patricia be strong now
and don’t fall

6 responses

summercrazy 11.24.2011

I love how powerful this is xx
HappiSt.Cloud 11.24.2011

That is so sad! What sort of a friend does that? Great writing though!
eeva 11.25.2011

thank you!! that was exactly what i was going for… POWERFUL!
Zylaar 11.25.2011

I hate the fact you’re disregarding use of capitals but FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE THIS STORY!!! XDDDDD
eeva 11.27.2011

OMYGOSH I AM SO SORRY ZYLAAR i shall keep this in mind for the next one, sorry
cecilia49 12.02.2011

some friend pffft. youre such a good writer!